19 January 2016

Time to Think.

Normal form.
It happened this Sunday morning.  A silence had descended at home  - and not one of those eerie ones where you wonder what is wrong.

Nothing was amiss.  Both my children were in sight, sat quietly reading.

It's only taken ten bleedin' years.

The six year old now loves Secret Seven books and no longer reads aloud, no longer needs me to read aloud to him, no longer wants me to.  *Sigh*

*Seizes a newspaper, puts feet up*

*Contemplates.*

Goodness, it's been a long time coming - time such as this, to think.  

It's lovely when they're squishy little babies, all cuddly and gorgeous, but there's a lot of broken sleep - theirs and, consequently, yours - and just as you pass that stage another little one comes along and the whole process starts again.

A few years on and they're no longer babies but you can't take your eyes off them for a second.  You spend your time separating them, getting them out of the house and clearing up after them, as well as hopefully fitting in lots of actual playing with them and hitting the wine bottle before yet another whole process starts again.  So there still isn't really time to breathe, let alone think.  

And then, suddenly, out of the blue, even though you know it's coming because you've already reached this grieving point with your eldest and you know your youngest will get there quicker than he or she did because they have them to copy, the hurly burly of two small children turns into something else:  Quiet.  And you wonder what's wrong.

Your nerves are still too shattered to be at ease.  An inner alarm goes off needlessly.  It's habit.

Pray tell, what is this place called peace?

It's something a single parent seldom sees!

No-one move a muscle.

Ta.

Anya XX

17 comments:

  1. I'm so jealous that your 6yo reads to himself. My 7yo is still not quite there yet. Enjoy the peace and quiet. xx

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    1. Oh Rachel, it's a bittersweet thing! He's actually 6 3/4 so nothing to feel jealous about. I think he just got fed up with waiting around for me to finish stuff and just got on with it! Plus, as I say, he's copying his older brother. You'll miss reading together when she goes into her own world x

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  2. Tell me the secret! We read endlessly to ours and listen to them read, but honestly, encouraging reading has killed me! I dream of this day. Really happy for you though and blimey, enjoy the peace!

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    1. Perhaps it's the Secret Seven books? Or boredom probably?! X

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    2. And you'll miss it too. Thank you though x

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  3. Enjoy it my friend, it is well deserved. Mich x

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    1. Ah thank you. It's strangely quiet, but probably not for long lol x

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  4. The quiet before the adolescent storm... ;)
    My youngest is not someone who enjoys reading. He has to do it for school and that's as far as it goes for him. So imagine my surprise when he came home from his dad's after New Year with a book.

    He told me he'd bought it!!! I was flabbergasted. Apparently some guy at the station in Paris had approached him with the book and asked him if he would like to read it. He wanted to encourage boys to read. He said my son could give any amount of money he could afford. So my son gave him the £10 he'd got for Christmas, and the guy gave him back 4Eur.

    All a bit bizarre, but it is a book for teenagers, and my son has started reading it. Wonders will never cease.

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    1. Ho hum. Never thought of that lol! What an unusual thing to happen for your son. I wonder if that man was the author? Some of those books for teenagers are fierce. My eldest (reading age of 14 last year according to his school) has been encouraged to read the Alex Ryder spy books -by Anthony Horowitz and the Joshua Files - can't remember - and he loves them, if that helps. What a marvellous move by that man, assuming he was sincere. It's terribly disheartening watching all the youngsters on their phones not talking to one another. Can't blame him. I hope he inspires many!

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  5. Anya, don't they both really look like you! Polly xx

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    1. Hi Polly! I can't see it myself, but if you say so, thank you :) Hope you're well xx

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  6. Ahh yes it's lovely when this happens. You wait so long for some 'you' time..although I've now started missing being so involved. I still insist on reading together at bedtime but not sure how long he'll want to do this. It's definitely bittersweet....but enjoy the peaceful moments Anya. They'll be another phase around the corner! x

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    1. Thank you! It's funny how we (I!) never see these things coming and how they come with such mixed feelings. You're right about the phases though. Hope you manage to read forever together xx

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  7. I think you will find a way of slipping into this groove - you are just out of practice. X

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  8. Oh I adore it when you write posts like this your sense of humour comes shining through. Sounds wonderful x

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  9. So glad to read you have reached that stage! ;) xx

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  10. Oh I did enjoy this. My house is always silent now mine has gone to university - sob sob! But I know what you mean about relishing the peace and the contentment, even if it's only for a short time.
    They do look like you xx

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